My Grandmother
2007
This is probably one of the hardest things that I have ever had to say. I found out yesterday afternoon that my mama Conner is about to die. She is 91 years old and has been in a nursing home for the past couple of years or so. She needed around the clock care due to her health. She came down with a kidney infection and ended up in ICU at the hospital. The doctors have been treating her with medication but they finally said that there wasn’t much else that they could do. So they sent her back to the nursing home with Hospice care so that she could live out what was left of her life. I just have a very very hard time understanding how a kidney infection could cause this. But everyone is telling me that it is due to her age. So what can you do? I hate this, I was very close with my mama and this is very hard for me to take. I still don’t understand why there isn’t anything that the doctors can do. With modern medicine you would think that something would work. I’m at a loss of words over this. I feel like a cop out because I keep telling myself that she had a wonderful, long life. It doesn’t help to say the words though. It’s hard just to type this post let alone to think of her being gone forever. I’ll be heading up to Cleburne this weekend to see her one more time before she dies. This weekend is going to be hard to get over…hell, it’s hard to just get it started.
I know that many other people have had to deal with this sort of thing. But ya know, it’s always easier to be the person standing on the other side saying…it will be ok, just don’t worry about, she will be in a better place…it’s so much easier to be that other person.
Please say a little prayer for my mama Conner so that she can find her way to Heaven. And pray for me and my family so that we can find the strength needed to get through this sorrow and loss.
Thank you…
